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H to the C, 2005 [09 Oct 2005|08:57pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | Nada Surf- Your Legs Grow ]

I don't know why but it seems like no other dance will ever beat homecoming last year. And I don't know why it took me this long to realize, but last night we pretty much mimicked what we did at homecoming 2004 (rutabegorz, dance, in-n-out, jimmy's house). I sort of miss how things were back then and how it felt? Yeah, I did have a good time yesterday. I talked to alice until the wee hours of the night and we both fell asleep without realizing it. & then she had a dream about me busting out some spanish and saying "Yeah, sometimes I just say things in spanish without knowing it". And now

 

(a)I really dont want to go to school tomorrow

 

(b)I want it to be two weeks from now

 

(c)I want to get away for a little bit

 

(d)all of the above

 

I choose D.

 

 

call this bitch for a good time, 4225233 )

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newport, bitch [07 Aug 2005|08:47pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]
[ music | Finley Quaye-Dice ]

Alice pretty much said everything there needs to be said about our trip to Newport. We're hitting Laguna faux sure next time.

 

nothing could be better )

Yearbook bizznizz has given me a reason to stay out until 10 pm or later every single night this week. It feels good to relax on a Sunday at home, but I do miss the outside world already. There are a few things I'm going to try not to ever forget from these adventures: meeting molly, watching fireworks from hillcrest, watching mexicans play soccer at hillcrest, the pink lady doing cartwheels at hillcrest, james having sweaty arm pits, james threatening to crush molly, james singing to daniel beddingfield,  the black guy dancing while waiting to cross the street, the black guy telling us all to put away our "cam-err-rrrrrrah ph-oh-nes", the black security guard that let us park in newport, touching jellyfish,  lunch at islands with brizzle, brizzle getting asked if he was a homosexual while using the men's room, seeing king tut's treasures, driving lessons with brizzle, pumping gas with brizzle, nasty greek food, observing a photoshoot, lunch at cpk with alice, shopping with alice, and now my mind has ran blank.

I miss Jimmy.

 

 

 

 

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anthems for a seventeen year-old girl [24 Jul 2005|01:25pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Annie- My Heartbeat ]

Seeing as how I turned seventeen last month, I attempted to purchase a ticket for an R rated movie yesterday. The bitches didn't believe I was of age. Newsha, on the other hand, bought both mine and his own with no questions asked. Thanks Newsh. I think the secret to his success is that lovely facial hair he's developing. I guess I need to grow a beard now.

And now for the three things that I'm looking forward to this week:

1. laguna beach

2. clam chowder inside of a bowl made entirely out of bread

3. slapping jimmy in public like the real hooker he is

 

oh, this isn't just another meaningless questionnaire.

http://www.crush007.com/love.cgi?id=1122230483zws

 

 

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owning james [18 Jun 2005|03:52pm]
[ mood | devious ]
[ music | phoenix- if i ever feel better ]

OWNED.

James is an anus invader.
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long time, no post [05 Jun 2005|07:28pm]
[ mood | loved ]

I'm not going to tag anyone like ALICE tagged me.

Pick your current six favorite songs, then pick six other people that have to do the same.

1. Bloc Party- The Tulips
2. M83- Teen Angst
3. Erlend Oye- The Athlete
4. The Appleseed Cast- Innocent Vigilant Ordinary
5. Kings of Leon- Soft
6. Gorillaz- Feel Good Inc.

I don't have anything important to say except that James Ebiner is looking for a girl with a midget fetish because of obvious reasons AND I'm getting the urge to go to the Abercrombie at the Brea Mall for unknown reasons (actually I do know why and so does every other girl at Troy). Oh and I'm officially part of the A-Krew. I didn't even have to talk to the lady in spanish. SCORE.

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[17 Apr 2005|06:49pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | coldplay-sparks ]

beach )

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9298398+39849384+93849348 = ? [12 Apr 2005|03:18pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Aqualung- Strange and Beautiful ]

Yesterday was too fun to handle. The only negative parts were losing my mixed cd and being tricked into sharing my secrets with Alex, Brian, and Amy. Biotches.
I'm going to take Dayanita's idea and put it into effect.
NICKNAME LIST (there may be more than one)
1. Amber- Amby, Amberoni

2. Amy- Amydoo, Amypenis,

3. Veronica- Wenis, Miss Cleo, Cockswallow China

4. Alice- Hollaback Girl

5. Dayanita- Mozster, Daya-neat-ah!

6. Kellie- Kellster

7. Newsha- Newshysushi, Fatty

8. Kevan- Bra, Little Kay, K-von

9. Alex- Mister Smells-Extraordinarily-Good, Supervision

10. Brian- Bri-Bri, Bitchboy

11. Jimmy- Stinky

I can't think of anymore nicknames so this will do for now.

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and what's eating you alive might help you to survive. [10 Apr 2005|06:53pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | Ted Leo & the Pharmacists- Me and Mia ]

Today is the day that Paul McCartney told the world the Beatles would never play together again. Today is also the day that I went to the beach for the first time in two years and flew a kite for the second time in my life. I made a new mixed cd especially for the car trip and wowee zowee its pretty good. While the car was in motion I was told the story of these two insane transients that used to wander all over San Pedro. The first man came to be known as "yellow man" because he wore nothing but yellow and used to caress the yellow hydrants. The second man was called "the pointer" because he would do nothing but point. He especially loved to direct traffic. Everyone in the town let these men be and respected them, for the most part. One day the pointer was a victim of a hit-and-run and died instantly. The driver was eventually caught by a group of people from the town and beaten to a pulp. End of story.
side note: this weekend was especially good all thanks to these people:
1 veronica- for driving alice and myself around town on friday
2 newsha- for having the shindig at his house saturday and supplying good food.
3 brian- for driving two stranded girls (exaggeration) home
4 ambery- for being my heterosexual partner in crime

i'll edit this with pictures later.

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and you told me you wanted to eat up my sadness [13 Mar 2005|02:40pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | bloc party-this modern love ]

I'm only updating becos Brian and his alter-ego Rian told me to. I need to stop listening to people and do the things I do only because I want to do them. This entry isn't helping with that, but OH WELL. I'm just going to start rambling on and making this entry a real crappy one because brian and rian are whores and they don't deserve a well written lj entry. The weather this week was so nice. The sun cheers me up sometimes especially through times when things are dramatically changing. I learned a lot of secrets! and gossip and such. Its interesting, but I should stop being so curious and nosy. My lunch break at school is diiiifffff now. Its full of tofu and cramming in cars like sardines and enjoying alice's outbursts (" I said i called you ACCIDENTALLY!!! ACCIDENT-A-LLY! gosh she's so stupid!"). We figured out the sadies theme HEEHOOHEE. Sneaky bitches. I want to sleep through this whole week, wake up on saturday morning and just have a real good day. A certain movie is coming out and even though I know I'm going to have nightmares after seeing it, I'm pretty excited. But not as excited as I'm going to be when Star Wars Episode 3 comes out. Yeppas I am a big star wars geek, but I'm not the only one so PSSSSSHAW to you all. And no I am not going to dress up like a character from the movie and stand in line the first day....I'm not that hardcore. Maybe I'll do that when the new Harry Potter comes out. We'll see. we'll see.
Mine and VERONICA's pact is dying. I thought it was going to work out pretty well ,but bad luck just loves us both. Our other "hot" pact better work out though.
EMMMMMMM. Thats it. I'm going to Islands for the first time today!! with two lovely people.
Hey everybody, if you want to see a Michael Jackson lookalike on myspace just IM me and I will be more than glad to show you, except I won't really be on aim that much anymore. or maybe just not this week? i dont know.
kbye.

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we've gone off track and lost all hope(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) <3&*#@ [10 Feb 2005|07:39pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | Rooney-Losing All Control ]

Uppity Date. My grades sucked hard and so my cellphone is no longer in my possession and I'm punished for life. I wanted to post the pictures from last friday's fun. SO YO here it is.

 

hot tramps!!!!!!!!!!!!!! )

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but i know its too late. i should've given you a reason to stay. [30 Jan 2005|09:11pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | death cab for cutie- lack of color ]

i haven't updated lately. i don't really feel like writing much of anything because i don't think i'm in the right state of mind. kevan wanted a post and i never back down on a promise so here it is.

 

this is fact not fiction for the first time in years )

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she just keep falling for the creep [16 Jan 2005|12:54am]
[ mood | jubilant ]
[ music | metric-soft rock star ]

Okay since today was such an awesomitacular day I think I'll just make a random entry and jumble a bunch of things in here: I fell in love with two bands and I can't stop listening to them. I hung out with my filipino girlfriends + amber at the block. I found really pretty shoes!!!! and Clarisa pointed out my new obsession with hearts. Jupiter Sunrise performed at the Block and I was excited. Their guitarist/singer is ridiculously talented and goodlooking. Veronica and I stole the drummer's hoodie HAHAHAH mine. Between Veronica's angry outbursts and Amber calling people "snow angels", I think we almost got jumped about 3948934 times. HAHAHA some phucker called Amber a stupid bitch outside of the pizza place window. We can read lips well. I spent a lot of money today. Having fun can be pricey. I had a lot of it today. I hope it'll continue to tomorrow? or not.
p.o.

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You're like a messiah,pal; little kingdoms in your chest [12 Jan 2005|07:33pm]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | broken social scene-stars and sons ]

Phuckers. I thought this week would be better, but so far its a bust. Homework still isn't a big concern for me. I told about 394892384 more lies. I felt pretty guilty when my dad asked how school was and all I could say was "yeah it was cool" since I ditched a chunk of the day. Phuckers. So much is changing. I have way too many things on my mind. My head might explode soon. KABOOM! just like that. Not knowing the right comfort words to say and not being able to give good advice to a person is the worst feeling in the world. I can't even fathom the stress of that other person who this is all actually about. I know what I'm feeling is about 1/millionth of it and it feels terrible. I'm craving the weekend more than I've ever craved it before. I got a nice letter in the mail today from a good friend. That cheered me up for a bit. Thanks Jimmy. I need a bear hug. We all need bear hugs. Give your friend a bear hug tomorrow. They really do help.

meh.

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oh what a tangled web we weave [09 Jan 2005|02:02pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | barcelona-kasey keller ]

I've been lying way too much and I think I need to cut it out before I get caught in my web of deceit. I handed my mom a big fat lie yesterday. She thought I was at Megan's house working on a project with Clarisa, but we really had ulterior motives for getting together. Our first plan didn't work out & that was a bust. We cheered ourselves up by going to two of my favorite places in the world; target and in-n-out. Later on Clarisa and myself devised a way to get ourselves to the Irvine Spectrum. Its so lovely there. I reallyreallyreally want to go back and I think I'm gonna. We are girls so of course we shopped. They have an Urban Outfitters there so that made me happy. I found pretty, shiny things so that made me happy times infinity + one. I think Clarisa is rubbing off on me because whenever I see something shiny I get excited. Pretty soon you're gonna be able to tell me that there is a shiny thing nearby and im going to freak out, turn about and shout out, "where?!?!omfgz where?!?!".
this weekend was way different then i expected, but in a good way.

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same damn planet everytime i look [08 Jan 2005|11:59am]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | nada surf-paper boats ]

"So this is the new year, and I don't feel any different", except for the fact that my determination has dropped to a new low. I don't do my homework at all anymore. I'm too preoccupied with paying attention to everyone else's changing lives vs. my own. I'm pretty freaked out about today even though it doesn't effect me directly. I care so much about this one person and I hope everything is going to be ok. Thinking, staring at the ceiling, and singing the same songs to your walls is a great waste of time and I think you should try it.

big run on sentence right here---->Its weird how there are some people that you can indulge in conversation so effortlessy and there are others where you can't think of more than five words to say and you sit there in a painful and awkward silence until someone utters "ok talk to you later bye!" and they walk away and you both pretend like you're friends even though you know deep down you'll never have that chemistry you have with your real friends because even when there are moments of not talking with those people it still feels comfortable, safe, and okay. (this is me just rambling and trying to write a big entry for queen kevan to read so he can't say i never update anymore)

veronica and i made an exciting pact to do this one exciting thing. i can't say what it is just yet but you'll see sometime soon. veronica's going to look like a hot mexican girl -_-

peace out.
make out.
go shout.
kbye.

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[25 Dec 2004|03:16pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | the cardigans-love fool ]

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of my bitchez n hoz.

I love the holidays and watching the fam get drunk.

quick uppitydate

WEDNESDAY- exchanged secret santa gifts even though we all pretty much figured out who had whom. jimmy baked cookies!!!! & we lied  about them burning & ate all but 2 (yeah, we're too nice).amber and kevan made a baby and theyre going to name it after me. amy gave birth to a hot gotchi. robert told the boys to just think about jesus when they're going through some troubles (oh oh erection?). newsha wished us all a happy holiday by shaking his camel toe.

THURSDAY- everyone saw meet the fockers.

FRIDAY- christmas eve party at the fams. whooo drinks. whoo my uncle played santa clause. whooo hysterical.

all of jew? olive jew? i love jew? YES I LOVE YOU.

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holy jeeseus [20 Dec 2004|08:07pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | vanessa carlton ]

HOT DAMN I'm bored. I want to get out of the house but my mom has been busy painting and won't take me anywhere. Why can't she be like all the other parents and go christmas shopping? or go to the grocery store? or go get gas? Why can't she just go somewhere so I can tag along and get out of my room. I'm seriously rolling around on the floor. BLAHHHH.
I've been listening to really cheesy music. Not that I mind cheesiness or anything because believe me you, I LOVE CHEESY stuff. But I just want to know why I've had the urge to listen to it. And why I keep listening to Burn by Usher even though I haven't broken up with anyone. Maybe because he's black, I'm black, and its a soulful song for us black people? Yeah ngr thats right.
I need to go shopping for secret santa stuff and now I only have one day to do it. WEDNESDAY, YES, FUN, FINALLY. Even though it sucks because its at my house and I just really want to get away from it.Itll still be good. My neighbors better watch out because we are a pack of rough ryderz. OH MY GOSH i'll just shut up.
Myspace is a phucker. I was imed by someone and they asked who I was. Dumbass status right there.
I'm curious about saturday.
I miss everyone already and its been two days.

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[04 Dec 2004|04:13pm]

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY NEWSHA AND PAUL!!!!!!

haha sluts.

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[22 Nov 2004|05:26pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | john lennon ]

Ladies and gents, Amy Kim's hair does not look like a samurai. IT LOOKS THE SAME just layered.It looks really cute so Amy shut the hay up before I smack you with your own 23 and 1/4 inch penis.

JarJarJar. Boy was  saturday fun, with newsha's penis in my mouth and all. I just joked. What? Yes, we all partied for Jimmay's big one-five. JAPANESE FOOD, SCORE! I tried spicy tuna rolls for the first time and almost died. No, actually it was good. AND I used chopsticks the entire time. Proud?Proud? Oh kay nevermind. But yeah we all lounged about in jimmy's room in the dark and I swear some rapeage went on coughalexandjimmycough. I'm still sad that Amy didn't let us play skip-it with her enormous wang/gochu.

OH OH! Today alice sandeesh angela and i were almost kicked out of the library for their uh rep for creating havoc. "I heard that you guys screw around, giggle and stuff" HHHHHHHHHHASDFASJ.

I need to clean my room.k.bye. 

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i don't seem obvious, do i? [13 Nov 2004|07:49pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | jimmy eat world- authority song!!!! ]

I GOT KIDNAPPED TODAY. Yeah, I was initiated and paraded around with  OWNED written on my forehead. I'll never forget getting kicked out of downtown disney (HARDCORE!!!).

I missed out on the Faint. I should be upset, but I'm not. I think I had a better time with the homies at greenleaf. RAWR. Yeah, a lot happened. 1 We pulled on Newsha's (Jimmy's?) beanie and controlled him, 2 Megan and I bit Alex's arm, 3 Newsha did a weird dance, 4 Megan raped Amber and then they both raped Kevan, 5 we ate really good ice cream, 6 I almost was killed by a bicyclist, 7 Amber stalked the old man in Level's, 8 Amber showed Megan and I her ass again 9 Kevan and Amber disputed over ownership of my boobs (what? megan shut up, they aren't going to grow), 10 Alex gave me back the Black Ninja Power Ranger card!!!! that Newsha stole (bitchass) 11 We saw Candace and Brother Andrew for a brief moment and Candace did her goat face 12 We made Newsha listen to "You Made Me Gay" by Gravvy Train!!! and I'm pretty sure he liked it 13 a Starbucks man told us not to take anymore scandalous pictures (MUAHA). ok I can't remember anymore. Nothing was in any particular order becos my brain doesn't quite work like that. ALRIGHTbyebyebye.

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